I’m terrible, let’s fix it.

Well, if I were you, I would stop reading now. This is for me, not you.

I’m tired. Fed up with myself. Everything is mediocre and anything good is just out of reach.

I have to start my weight loss journey from scratch. Again. There’s never quite enough money so I don’t have to worry. There’s money I owe that I just can’t seem to find to pay back.

I’m behind where I want to be professionally. I should have done more by now. I can’t even be sure I’m doing the right thing. So many doubts.

Friendships are ending, ones I thought I could count on forever have faded to nothing. Some are even worse than nothing. I blame babies. They change people and as much as people say they want to stay friends and we’ll still be in touch and do things together, it’s never the same. It becomes too one-sided.

I’m making some changes starting now. I’ll be tracking my mood to see if I can get my depression in check. The weight is going. The debt is being repaid. Most importantly, I’ll be pruning the dead branches of my social tree.

I’ve been paying lip service to sorting myself out for too long. I need to be selfish or I’m going to fall apart. I hope that the people around me will understand that, the ones who are true friends will.

That’s all.


3 thoughts on “I’m terrible, let’s fix it.

  1. Good luck with all this – let me know if I can help!

    When you were losing weight before and blogging your progress I think this was quite successful (wan’t it?) and gave you a level of accountability that probably helped you stick to it, and supporters to celebrate with you upon you reaching milestones? Thing is if you didn’t post for a while then it wasn’t obvious that you hadn’t, so your supporters didn’t know to prod you. There’s services that fix this issue – would you be willing to try one out with me? (I’m planning on paying more than lip service to losing some weight, for health reasons. Not started yet though… I’m scheduling it for when the Xmas cake runs out…)

    As regards your finances – do you have internet banking? If so then I’ve found that doing all purchases on debit card (where possible) and then analysing previous statements every 6 months or so with a spreadsheet or similar makes it easier to see where your money is going and to figure out where you might be able to eke out some savings. If you think this is a good idea and want help setting it up then just drop me an email or phone call 🙂 Some of the online banks make it quite hard to get your data out, but I have some ways around this…

    Again – very good luck and wishing you a Happier New Year!

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